Lilith - demon or a feminist?

In our days it is known that the name "Lilith" comes from Jewish "Lil" - night, mist, darkness. But in the historical resources Lilith appears much more back in time, in the Sumerian mythology from 5000 years. She was an assistant of the goddess Inane - The Sky Queen, with whom they both in some time during the year dropped down to men on the Earth for ritual ceremonies.

But most wide-spread is the Jewish story about Lilith. Lilith was the first woman at all and the first woman of Adam. On the sixth day God decided to create the man in his own image. The word “adam" comes from "adamah" (dust) and is referred as for men and for women. Adam wanted to dominate in the relationship with Lilith and to keep her in submission. Lilith was disobedient and loved freedom, so she escaped and hid around the Red Sea and joined the low demons. In this way Lilith became the first feminist in the world.

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Trying to turn the ICEBERG upside down..

Biscuit Monster

She was thinking about him. The serial. He was awful, disgusting, nasty. He was a jerk. Did she love him? Maybe the same question was the desired answer. She wanted to know what he was thinking. But she knew she had lost him. The serial. How to allure him, how to keep him? Did she love him? Maybe she was in love with this other guy, his friend. She was not sure. It did not matter any more. Hum, this biscuit was cool.

She was seeing what her eyes wanted to see and she was hearing what she wanted to hear. Most of the time it was unpleasant. Long time ago she had lost her objectivity. Long time ago something has made her sightless. She was very tense. In her head she was feeling tension. Maybe because of that that she had made a lot of forbidden things. Did her consciousness torment her? Maybe she was trying all the time to lie herself she was good. Maybe that was the root of her tension. It was hard and often she was lying herself to find a little peace but all this was purchasing her. She was afraid of punishment. Was she excusing herself? Sure. She could not stand herself but she did not confess that and often she was proud with herself. Hum, yummy biscuit.

She was blind. She was seeing distorted reality. It was inimically. For so long she was not objective. She was lying herself. That’s how she was keeping going. She was insane. Were the subjective people insane? To what extend subjectivity is normal? Was she insane? Will she get insane? This question often tormented her. And this permanent headache. But all that was for an instant. In most of the time she was sure in her correctness and beside that she was hiding her real face (maybe deep in her soul she knew it was not for showing) and was playing the role of good, pleasant and smiling. But this smile was a grimace. Was she guilty? She was playing the role of nice and pleasant but she was not and that’s why that role didn’t satisfy her. It is like if you want a coffee and you have a cup of tea. Again she unsuccessfully was lying herself. But NO! She could not be herself. Her consciousness often broke her sleep that’s why she preferred to get tired to death and to be always busy and not thinking. But that was hard burden. She was excusing herself and often she was thinking that she was doing good to people and to the world. She will do good and to the next biscuit…

She wanted to get it all. She was greedy. In her wish to receive she was loosing all but didn’t realize it. She didn’t know the reason for all that. Maybe she thought she deserved something more, but maybe she was just gluttonous. She often had a bite of biscuits. She was wanting a lot, more and more, many. She was greedy, gluttonous. As the food she was swallowing and men. She was gourmet. For breakfast, for lunch, for dinner for hors d`oeuvre and as a desert. She was stuffing herself and she was always unsatisfied. Did he love her? This was important. Biscuits…

She was insensible, but she thought she had feelings and often was showing with them. But her deeds were proof for the opposite. Her heart was on her sleeve, but this was her greatest delusion, maybe part of her madness. She was playing the role. She thought she was sly but she was unhappy. Always trying to outmaneuver, always fighting with imaginable enemies, always trying to manipulate situations in order to get the desired. Almost every time loosing. She was confused and she was keeping eating biscuits and she was sure in her rightness.

P.S. The story was written under the influence of Hemingway and was a try to turn the iceberg upside down.

Mr. Killer\Karizma

What is Astrology?

Several months ago I started an Astrology course, Natal Astrology. Doing that I started to make horoscopes to several people around me...Some were inclined to believe, others denied saying it is all imagination, some just listened not knowing what to say. I had questions like: "Is your teacher a magician? Is she a soothsayer?..No she is an ordinary woman and astrology is not a magic it is something like a science...ancient science, coming from ancient Egypt and now developing every day. It is very close to psychology. Even Carl Yung a great psychologist was also and astrology researcher. Astrology is coming from Egypt and about this ancient civilization is known that had some science given from the sky or alien mind. Astrology was invented before the invention of the telescope. There is a statement that the east people get the knowledge from the inside from the core to the outside and the west from the periphery to the core. Two different approaches. So for me Astrology is science from the core to the out, it is close to the essence of life and maybe someday we the west people will appreciate it and will see its truthfulness. I don`t know what the ancient Egypt priests thought about Astrology but I`ll say you what i believe. One man who I made horoscope said: "Hey the starts are so far away from us that they can not influence us." Is he right? For me yes...
I believe as all astrologists in reincarnation and that every soul comes to this world to learn its lessons and to pay its debts in its way to perfection. But for me there is a big reasonable Energy or Power which rules and controls all this operation. You may call it God or whatever you like but it is here. And for me the way of the soul is to go through all its lives and they are many and are predestined. In fact this Great Power predestined our lives and just because it is clever wrote on the sky the codes of our lives. So planets don`t influence us they just show our lives in codes. This Great Power puts us on Earth in the real hell and above in the skies it gave us the map. Maybe we are in one big Matrix or in some unreal or so real PC strategy game. This world is made for something, look how precisely it is working. The nature, the animals and even the humans...
It is like big machine, we humans are part from it. Our lives and the map is in the stars, the creator is full of romanticism;] The beautiful stars which we often look at are the codes to our sufferings here...
So what is astrology? A map to my person and a map of my life.....
You will say: "So you are astrologist. Why don`t you say me what will happen with me..?" I can do that to one extend, but I can not do it perfect..and look - what is perfect? Nothing is perfect. The science is developing. It can not answer to many questions. Astrology is developing too and soon it will come more clear what is astrology and it will prove that it works and not that planets influence us but that they are part from this machine showing us the might of ONE POWER.

The Fight

Often God and the Devil are represented as two opposite powers fighting each other on Earth via us, people. One is influencing us and the other too, in our thoughts, deeds and decisions. The BIG FIGHT on Earth about our souls. But is this in that way? Maybe not. If God and Devil were equal, all bad people, doing bad things, having big and many sins will go to Hell and there they would have a big prize for that because they helped the Devil in his fight. But it is not like that the big sinners go to Hell to be tormented, to pay for their evil deeds. So Devil helps God. He punishes the sinners. So the Devil is subordinate to God and helps him to teach us people to do Good. The Devil is the strict and bad teacher who if we make the wrong step punishes us. He is the power which correct the situation. So the Devil is a servant to God, his helper and coworker in our education. The Education of our souls. The education which we gain every day in our life by our decisions. So the Fight between the good God and bad Devil in fact is not a Fight, it is a cooperation.
We, our souls, we must go trough this to gain perfection and to learn to be good. The bad is here only to show us the difference. If there are not bad people we would never know what is Good and we would never appreciate it. The Bad is here to help us in our way to the supreme perfection.

And about the Fight, it is just made up in the ancient times to help the ancient people to realize the world and to help them to go through the way of their life. This ancient people were more ignorant than us, that's why they needed some hellish ideology to help them to complete the aim of their lives and the Aim is to learn and to be good. They were frightened. They feared of God. They feared of Devil. They were frightened with punishments. These ancient people were like animals, ignorant. They could understand only with the help of punishments and threats. Now we are more intelligent and self aware and we can be free from these dogmas and religions and alone to decide our way. Of course, in our irreligious times there are a lot of atheists. Among them there are also good people, but also very bad, believing they can have what they want and like. But they often are punished in life. Maybe from this Devil, the coworker of God. I don`t deny the fight i don`t deny God and Devil. For me they are two powers - one gives, other gets. In fact maybe they are one and the same power. Maybe they are one and the same energy, which rules this World.

Thinking of Adam and Eve

Thinking of Adam and Eve legend and again thinking on the contrary on the Darwin`s theory I just get lost one evening. I really realize how wrong are both. And I even don`t realize how people get lost believing in them both although they don`t have a slice of logic. Logic is one of the basic principles which construct our life and thinking. For centuries people believed in two unlogic assertions. Do u believe that from 2 humans can rise the whole nation of humans with its all variety? Do you believe that an Indian, Chinese and Afro American are children of one and the same parents and they are Adam and Eve? The Bible is written maybe when America as a continent was not discovered so there is no Indians in its explanations? But they existed. It is proven. So in the legend of Adam and Eve there is a big mistake. They missed half of the humans. It is obvious that Adam and Eve are white so they can not create an Afro American. It is gene. How white person will create Afro American. From the point of genetic it is impossible. So who are the parents of Afro Americans or Afro Africans, who are the parents of Chinese people or of the Indians? May be they don`t have parents. Very unlogic. Here comes the Darwin`s theory. It seems it will give us the answer. I watched one movie based on Darwin`s theory and there they pointed that their investigations lead them to think that the first man had lived I don`t remember when but in east Africa around Kenya and he was black, Afro African. Adam and Eve were Afro Africans? In fact, do you believe in the thing with the amoeba? That we came here because of it transforming from animal to animal? I don`t. But look if the first man is a Kenya Afro African - black, with small bones, typical Afro man, then from where does the big white blond blue eyed Scandinavian appear?
The logic says we must look at the genes. Can a black man with genes of a black man to transform into a Scandinavian man with Scandinavian genes? Maybe the science will say yes. But I will ask if there is so big transformation why we don`t transform now? Why the other animals don`t transform into creatures with mind? Why other monkeys don`t transform to humanlike creatures? So for somebody there is transformation and for the other no transformation and evolution. For me both theories are unlogic and untrue. But when you get both of them together you will see that they complete one another and maybe something logic may appear.

For me the truth, it is my truth. Somebody, I don`t know who, had let some creatures on earth like Adam and Eve but not the same, different and various and many Adams and Eves. They were different - some black, some white, some yellow, some red. They were no monkeys and not so human as we now for me that were the first humans. They took the stone, made the first instruments of labor and so on and the evolution started. We have proofs for the Homo Erectus but he was not a monkey. The monkeys also go on 2 legs but they are not Homo Erectus. And why we don`t have the chain who was before Homo Erectus? They say a monkey. But they don`t have it. There is not discovered relic. So somebody had putted some humanlike groups on our mother earth different with different genes and evolution started. I think now and Darwin and the Bible writers will be satisfied.