THE PRAYER

For so long I want to write this piece, but I had no time. For me it was very important and a note was lying on my desk in order to not forget to write it here, although I don’t have so many readers but I hope it will be interesting and useful for someone. I will begin with the Creator. It is seen I am very much occupied with religion and with the theme of God. But that is the way I am. So, I prefer to call him Creator. When you meet someone for the first time you look at his face, body, clothes, his gestures and voice. Then when you get more close to him you get a notice to his words and thinking, his views and ideas. And when you get closer and share a long time with him you can see his deeds. Let’s put this scheme to our Creator. We can not see his figure. In fact he has not body and face. We can not hear his voice. We have a slight idea of his views and ideas. But we can see his deeds. In fact from the tree points of the scheme we can relate our Creator only with the third which in fact has the biggest weight and is the only one of the three which shows the real truth and real face of a person. When we take a view to his deeds it is seen his biggest creation – our Solar System, our Planet, our Nature, the Flora and Fauna and us – Humans. The product of his deeds is seen very clearly for everyone. Nobody can argue that it is perfect, beautiful, awesome and made with so love. Love towards us – who inhabit this creation and who are so created. From this deed we can see that The Creator is one nice loving person who cares about humans and other creatures and loves them, treating them gentle and wise. Everyone of us is his creation thus his child. He can’t not loving us. This is obvious to all people who are creating. The created by you is always very dear to you. So, the Creator is a person without body, face and voice but with a lot of deeds, showing him as one pleasant person. Sometimes we have obstacles in life. As maybe some of you know my hobby is Astrology. And as I said the Solar System and maybe the Universe is creation of God, thus the planets and stars and their directory of moving is determined by him. In a previous essay I said that stars are the map of our lives. He determined even our lives giving the right to choose. Maybe the matrix is very complicated maybe everyone of us has one good and one bad end in life said simply. But I am sure it is more complex. You see how complex is everything made by him. We have revealed maybe 10% of the creation. To show you how wise is he and how wise and excellent everything is made I will give you example with the Black Holes in the Universe. Man physically can not travel in the Universe because the distances are so enormous that one lifetime of a man will not be enough. BUT! There are made Black Holes, corridors which make the moving in the Space easier and maybe possible for us humans. He had thought of everything. Our Planet Earth, home for so many humans is big enough for us although it gets smaller and smaller. The other Planets show as a map our life. We have obstacles in life. You will say: “Yes, we have very hard moments. The Creator is not so good.” We have obstacles, but they are because of our education. We must reach perfection in order to go further. It is said by some people who say they know that there are other worlds, other higher realities. And maybe there are. The imagination of the Creator is undoubtedly. The obstacles are needed, but the hard situations are awful. People feel desperate, unhappy, broken. Then The Creator gives them one option – to speak to him, to beg him, to pray to him. And he is always there for everyone on the Earth at any time. You can ask him, just speak to him or argue with him and you will be always heard. Think about the time when you was a child and had a dream, just think, didn’t this dream happen? I am sure you will say “yes”. It happened or it could happen but you withdraw from it. Think of your childish dreams and not only about them, think about all your dreams. They all happed or could happen. We are heard, even we are eavesdropped and as a present we receive our realized dreams. And with the player is the same. Think of something you have prayed about. After a couple of years it happens. Only if you have made a lot of bad things maybe your prayers will not be heard but you have the option to repent and then again you can dream and pray. I wrote this big essay just for one sentence which I will write now. Prayers come true. Even if you don’t believe, even if you are suspicious you will see that it is true. Every prayer comes true so pray and don’t stop dreaming. This nice, loving person – the Creator will give us all we want. But the obstacles are there in order to balance the situation. If there are no obstacles our life will be senseless. We would not have aims, we would not develop, we would not fight, and we would not live. Without obstacles live will be so boring we will live life without showing us, without showing our potential and identity. Here we can show us. Here our souls can show and test themselves. In esoteric science and east religions where reincarnation is the base of them it is said that souls live somewhere in other dimension, on groups and they are one and the same and equal (like in Communism, which for me is vicious system, giving the rights and welfare to the lazy and stupid and taking the rights and welfare from the wise and smart and working, which is self-destroying, because the lazy and stupid, having the same rights destroy the system and not develop it, because it is internal to the lazy and stupid to destroy and not to build). So the souls are different substance coming here to show their identity and to learn. And they have always the help. Because the nice, kind teacher is always here to show us the right way, the way to perfection and when it is hard to us we can always ask him for help, pray for help and the help will come. I reveal you one of the miracles of the world which I revealed alone for me. I hope you will reveal it for you and having it, rule it well, because there is punishment. The balance must be kept. And the aim must not be forget – learning the rules of life, looking on the different faces of life, learning people, living, ruling your life and going ahead to perfection. So, let us be good, better and better trying to reach the best. Live one fulfilled life and don’t stop thinking.

FAIR WIND!
VPi
:X

SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE - life is full of miracles...

MIA - PAPER PLANES
or our fragile and small, but BIG dreams



Life teaches us through all our existence
and with its lessons, we win the battle of our life.

FAIR WIND!
VPi
:x

HAPPY EASTER 2009!

Jesus Christ is Risen Today!

FAIR WIND!
VPi
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FREEDOM!

ANALYZE THIS!

Die Another Day lyrics

I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day

I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day

Sigmund Freud
Analyze this
Analyze this
Analyze this

I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now

Uh, uh

I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

For every sin, I'll have to pay
I've come to work, I've come to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go

I'm gonna avoid the cliche
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

Uh, uh

[Laugh]

I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

Another day [x6]

FAIR WIND!
VPi
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FREEDOM!

The most harmless drug and the best medicine

God created the world and gave this ability to create to man. It is strange that man feels entirely full and happy when he creates something that interest him with full capacity. When we create we fall in another dimension. Time is different. There is no time. Man charges himself with energy, another energy from different level( not the common energy from food, breathing and sleeping). The condition in which he falls is like that of the usage of opium. Our soul is jubilating and we are full of pleasure. The most harmless drug and the best medicine in my opinion.

I decided to share with you some of my paintings. I`m not a professional painter, even the opposite. I decided to share with you the making of my last painting. I hope you will like it.

Freedom,
VPi

Skyscapes

We have often heard about landscapes and rarely about seascapes but almost never about skyscapes. So i decided to promote this type of art here because there is nothing more beautiful than the sky. It is amazing experience to turn your head up and your stare to be absorbed by this incredible picture and knowing you are staring to the eternity you are charged with great energy. (Beauty gives positive energy and pleasure.)

Winning and Losing in Hemingway`s vision

Winner Take Nothing, 27th of October 1933

The collection presents the reality as horrible and cruel because of the historical period (disillusionment after the I World War and the Great Depression)or because of the tragic events in Hemingway’s life at that time. All pieces have tragic and pessimistic decoration. Hemingway depicts distorted characters as the distorted pictures of Pablo Picasso. Often his disillusionment transfers in black mockery and satire. The stories are symbols which got together construct the idea of the collection mentioned in the epigraph and the title. This is an existential quest. Quest for the great questions, for the sense of human life, for the aim of man, for his winning and losing in life and who is the real winner in fact. Hemingway gives his answers and coins his philosophy.

1. the reality - The Gambler, the Nun and the Radio
The need to fog our minds, the need for opium, reality is futile and absurd, human condition bad, man is doomed to pain, sufferings and losing.

2. the human soul - The Light of the World
Beauty and power of human soul, the inner strengths of man, who even in bad situation is believing, hoping and loving. Inner strengths which give power to human beings to keep going. Man can be destroyed but not defeated because of these inner strengths.

3. the winning - A Way You’ll Never Be
Winning is in that that we don’t give up and win against fate with courage.

4. the fight - A Day’s Wait
The sense of life is this fight and man shows his real face in that fight. Hemingway likes fair fighters, who stoically bare the plays of fate and victory it without showing any weakness.

5. the way of fight - A Clean, Well – Lighted Place
Stoically accepting the kicks of fate, bravely with self – respect with elegance and dignity.

6. The fight with fate is unequal.
Man is ordained to lose but he can win against providence with his courage, elegance and dignity, but he won’t get a prize, the opposite he will be put to more tests and trails. In this fight man shows his real face.

7. the losing - Fathers and Sons, The Sea Change, After the Storm
The motif is not clearly declared in the collection. It is undercurrent line and has its unvoiced messages and unstated conclusions. The motif of losing is omitted. Man is losing everything – happiness, love, dear people, gold, health, life. The mean strokes of fate. Ironic story.

8. God - A Natural History of the Dead
Even God is not concerned in the absurd and cruel and desperate condition of man.

The True Art

They say that error is inadmissible in the good craftsmanship and unavoidable in the true work of art (which may be true) and that just in that is the difference between the first and the second (which is suspicious).

Unknown originator

Who is more strange?

I want to begin with that that I didn’t like that man although he was not so bad.

He was nothing special, one of those people who you see and immediately forget. He was not eminent with anything. He had ordinary looks, not ugly but so ordinary that he seemed ugly. He was common and ordinary and simple. He had simple rules learned from his grandparents from the countryside and he followed them blindly. In fact they worked, but only for people like him. He was from the countryside too. He was trying to settle in the big city and to become a citizen of the capital. He wanted to marry in the capital to a nice woman and to have good family, as the old grandparents taught him.

We worked in the same department as me and from time to time we drank beer together after work. The first time he invited me as a gentleman then as a gentleman he started to show indifference towards me, trying to manipulate me and to evoke in me the feelings: “O, why doesn’t he like me anymore? Am I not good? Am I not beautiful?” But those are thoughts of a simple girl and I wasn’t so stupid that time. Life has learned me that already. He started to try to impose upon me. I liked one café where we spent our lunch breaks and drank coffee and after several times he said he didn’t want to go there. He started to whimsical. He didn`t want to go there, to sit here, to eat somewhere. He started to play old tricks. I asked him once out, to go to a lunch break and he said: “No. I will go out and have one sandwich. I don’t want to go out.” I never called him again after that. The manipulation he was trying to apply on me only cheered me up and I was entertained. Entertained in that way that I started to tease him to tell him how rich am I in order he to think that he had come across to a diamond and a very good victim. I did it slightly and he never knew. He thought he was playing the game but the game was played by me. I spoke I had some possessions, cars, apartments, real estates, I told him about vacations abroad and he get the hook. After that I felt regret but he deserved it. And I believe that everyone must get what he deserves. And I don`t say it. Don’t you remember the parable about the Judgment Day.

Often on our beer meetings I was speaking and he was listening. He was not secret, he just was simple and hadn’t much to say.
“What happened today in your office?” - he was sounding.
“Hm. Nothing special, just ordinary things.”
“How was your colleague Angy today?”
“She was fine. Demonic as always.”
“What do you think about Patrick?”
Patrick was the chief of the other department.
“He is a clever man, I like him.”
He smiled.
I knew what simple thought is rounding in his mind, but for a pity that was all his ability.
For him I was strange though he never said that to me. With his simple mind and simple rules he couldn’t understand my vigor, wish to entertain, necessity to smile every time 1000 times. He didn’t understand even the passion with which I spoke for everything. We were too different.

He was already 31 years old and it was (as simple men think) time to create your own nest – family and to continue to live the ordinary life but with a partner. He thought that it is time for him to marry. And he was looking around. I was one of his victims. I had to be pleased.
He was so ordinary, so simple. Of great importance of him were the social and living kitchen-sink standards and everything besides this was strange and unneeded. For happiness or not he guessed the right philosophy for living in order to suffer in minimal amounts and to lead and in future painless life. Maybe his grandparents are not so stupid or they just copy what was said to them from their grandparents, got from the wisdom of the generations and from the past, from where all truths emerge. Old philosophy, which saves you, but is not so interesting and entertaining. We must learn and entertain ourselves in this world not to save ourselves doing the most ordinary and the very simple. We must try to learn to fly.

So this man was given that simple philosophy God knows from where, he had simple looks, simple mind, simple life and he was looking for a woman to marry if it could be a pretty one. But she can be and slightly ugly – the philosophy accepted this even recommended it. He was looking for a simple woman like him, but he didn’t know it. I was a target but I was not so good according to the philosophy. I don’t believe he had ever fall in love with anyone. But maybe here I may be wrong.
“What is doing Martha?"
Martha was one of my colleagues.
“Nothing, I don’t know.”
“Does she have a boyfriend?”
“Yes, I think she has. Do you like her?”
“No, just asking.”

This man will not contribute to the world with nothing as hundred others. But he didn’t care or didn’t realize it. He just wanted to marry, because it is time. Men often show off with their wish of freedom and independence, with their fear of relationships and marriage. But this is one delusion. Most of them are afraid, more afraid than women. They fear from loneliness and they try to guarantee themselves. It is often met, man around 30s to look for a woman to marry and he wants this on any price and after that (after approximately 4 years) he realizes that he was wrong. Man can not marry because it is necessary and it is time. Man must marry when he is ready for this. No because "it is time", or because "the time came".

“What happened with Cloud and Diana? Did they come back from Vienna?”
“Not yet. They come tomorrow.”
“Is there some news about the deal with the selling of the company? Have you heard something? Have you heard something for the new owners?”
“No. I receive just the e- mails they send to all of us with the information about the process.”
“What is doing Renate?"
“I don’t know. I don’t like her. I m not interested in her.”

On our meetings for a mug of beer after work I often retold him stories from my life which was full of adventures. He was listening and often secretly sniggered at me because he thought he was more clever then me. He only was questioning for ordinary things not telling anything about his life and was sounding around to get information. And as I was talkative I was interesting and useful to him. One day as I was his target for marring or whatever he thought he asked me again sounding around how many relationships I have had.
“One long and several short” – was my answer – “But I have many relationships with boys which for one or other reason didn’t develop in real intimate relationship and they stayed on the level of friendship. I fall often strongly in love and my feelings are deep. And I even liked one boy 3 years!"
He was pragmatic and asked: “Were you a couple?”
“No. It didn’t happen.”
“How can you be in love with a man 3 years not having anything with him?"
“I had.” – I told him – "I had friendship.”

In that moment I realized that the strange is not me but he – the ordinary. And this question for the very same time proved how simple he is and how simple he thinks and how simple life lies in front of him full of emptiness. This question maybe proves that he never felt the feeling of love. He never tasted the bitter taste of unshared love, the pain of not being the one and the secret hope that one day you will be. He never dreamed for a beloved person. He was an empty man. He was pragmatic, so simple and clear.

Till now I can’t believe that this happened and that there is such a man in the world. I often ask myself remaining this dialogue: “Who is the more strange?”

“What are you going to do in the weekend?” – he asked
“I don’t know yet.”
“We can go to a walk in the park.”
“Yes, why not.”

But we never went.

Black magic and Destruction of Humankind

Nowadays the state is the institution which guarantees the law and the moral of society. There are some laws but the unpunished evil is spreading around. We see it everywhere. Rude behavior, bad deeds. The state can control only part of our lives and can protect only part of our rights. The unpunished evil is spreading, which proofs that the people must be threaten and punished which made partly the law in the middle ages, provoked by religion (my beloved religion). People putted without law and restrictions are evil, aggressive. They are like animals. Not all of them, but most.

One of this unpunished evil is the black magic. For me it in fact doesn`t exist. It is not restricted so if it existed with so many evil people the humankind would have destroyed itself and disappeared years ago. The evil people are more than good, and having the power to do bad unrestricted they would do it for sure.

In controversy of the hatred on Earth for me there is Supreme Great Power with high reason. I believe in it. It is good but and strict and sometimes is like the bad teacher. Only that why it can mange with the evil which is spread on the Earth.
So there is no black magic because if it had we would never be here now.

The black magic influences on the level of mind. You must see something made, you must hear, or you yourself to suggest that. It operates on that level. But for the doer of the magic for him this is disaster. The bad deed he did follows him all his life.

And this deed always returns to him again and again. He knows he is sinner and his consciousness doesn`t give him liberation. He himself made it or ordered it. He made all in self - aware condition. And this works on his subconsciousness. The bad deed.
And no matter if the black magic works or not for the victim for the doer and orderer it is returned 100 times. It works on his subconsciousness, it eats him from inside. This is the balance. What is done it returns back to you. You can test it with the smile. This balance we see everywhere in the nature. You do bad, you receive bad. This the principle of the Karma. You pay for all your deeds. You pay now you pay and in your future life, but mostly you pay now. This is the balance. Karma does`t means destiny. Karma means action and opposition. And the Supreme strict and fair Reason keeps the good and punishes the bad in that life. There are a lot of parables about that. So black magic is bad only for the doer. It rarely touches the victim. It is a myth like the vampires. But also it evokes the evil in people who believe they can do something unpunished bad to other. And often they themselves are punished. And for that they must be angry to themselves.

The Test

With so many gold, money and possessions in this world we must learn our souls to not notice them and to go on higher level where nothing is needed only curiosity for knowledge, investigation and impulse for creation. This world full of gold, money and possessions is a test for our souls. It is so obvious. Obvious is also that even having all these money , gold and possessions you are not happy. You are happy only when you gather knowledge and create and of course when you receive love. Because we are little Gods, as one African parable tells. And slowly we during our transformations (because Death is transformation) we will reach higher states and we will go on next level - maybe there is better.. I don`t know. I know only that soul develops to reach perfection. Maybe one day to rule the other not so perfect souls...but this is the machine or the system I don`t understand and I let it to God or to the Supreme Power as I call it. We are powerless in front of him. He rules and he decides. AMOR FATI (love your destiny). This is term from Nietzsche`s philosophy. Very right and true. We are helpless and we must be submissive. We don`t decide nothing. Is this a test of our soul or just life full of obstacles and sufferings which we must go through? But this is a test too.